My Personal Best 15 [Off Course Edition] No. 4 “Aki no Kehai” – The Cruelty Hidden in Kindness & the Unfading Colors of Autumn

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No. 4 is “Aki no Kehai” (Signs of Autumn)

At the very moment the seasons change, a sudden chill in the wind brushing against your skin can unexpectedly bring back past memories.
For No. 4 in My Personal Best 15 [Off Course Edition], I present an immortal masterpiece that seems to capture the very atmosphere of that changing season: “Aki no Kehai” (Signs of Autumn).

While it is not my number one, when someone mentions Off Course, this is the very first song that springs to my mind.
Before I really started diving into their discography, I already had the equation “Off Course = Aki no Kehai” firmly established in my head.

Back in 1977, when this song was released, the world was not overflowing with digital sounds like it is today. It was an era where the scrape of acoustic guitar strings and even the faintest breath caught by a microphone resonated directly with the listener’s heart. Beautiful melody lines and crystal-clear chorus work. However, hidden beneath that pleasing sound is a certain kind of “cruelty.” It wasn’t until I had lived a little longer and gained more life experience that I truly realized what it meant.

This time, I’d like to unravel the subtleties of the heart flowing at the root of this song—which is more than just beautiful—while crossing paths with fragments of my own memories.

My “Super Translation” of Aki no Kehai

Knowing we can never go back, I am quietly trying to accept our parting.
Although we certainly shared time together, our feelings have gradually drifted apart.
I truly want to be kind to you, but we are at a distance where even that cannot reach.
I just hope, at the very least, to end this in a beautiful way.

First, Please Listen to the Official Audio on YouTube

*Since an official video is unavailable, I have linked a video shared by fans. If there are any copyright issues, I will promptly remove it. (Please click the image below!)

■ Song Credits
Title: Aki no Kehai (Signs of Autumn)
Artist: Off Course
Lyrics & Composition: Kazumasa Oda
Arrangement: Off Course
Featured Album: JUNKTION (1977)
Release Year: 1977 (Single)
Two-Line Commentary
A song depicting the feelings of a man about to initiate a breakup through quiet scenic descriptions.
Although the word "autumn" is never used, the sense of an ending and the chilled emotional distance perfectly symbolize the season.

The Wind of Higashi-Matsubara and the Illusions of My Youth

Listening to this song reminds me of my life in Higashi-Matsubara, Setagaya Ward, where I spent my university days.
The year it was released, 1977, was the same year I entered university and began my life in Tokyo.

That town along the Keio Inokashira Line was close to city centers like Shibuya and Shinjuku, yet it somehow retained a tranquil, lived-in atmosphere. I remember the beginning of autumn, when the clinging heat of summer suddenly faded, and a chilly wind would sweep through the alleys at dusk.

My 20s: Mistaking It for Aesthetics

In a small apartment room—perhaps four and a half tatami mats in size—I would carefully drop the needle onto the record alone. The memory of listening to “Aki no Kehai” flowing from the speakers comes back to me as vividly as if it were yesterday.

Back then, I felt a certain mature male aesthetic in the “quiet parting” exuded by the song’s protagonist. Walking away silently, gazing at distant scenery without letting emotions run wild. That image seemed incredibly refined, and I harbored the shallow illusion of youth that one day, I too would end a romance with such an air of melancholy.

The Crackle of the Record and Sentimentalities of the Past

When Kazumasa Oda’s crystal-clear voice filled the room alongside the distinct pop and crackle of the vinyl record, I immersed myself in sentimentality, feeling as if I had become the protagonist of a drama. The beautiful, selfish misunderstanding that one steps back precisely because they care for the one they love. For the young me, who knew nothing of the true pain of parting or the complexities of the human heart, this song might have resonated as a “textbook of refined adult romance.”

However, when I revisit this song from my current perspective, having run through my working years and passed my 60th birthday, the scenery that unfolds is entirely different.

The Cruel Ego Named “My Utmost Kindness”

The true terror of this song—which simultaneously serves as its overwhelming charm—lies in the protagonist’s “boundless selfishness.”

Packaging Escapism and Self-Preservation

Even though he has already decided entirely on his own that he is going to leave her, he goes out of his way to choose a park with a beautiful view as the stage for their breakup. Then, he avoids clear words of parting and tries to dominate the space with silence.

What is even more cruel is that he begs her to smile, even if it’s a fake one, and positions himself as a tragic hero when she refuses to accept the “utmost kindness” he has offered.

Calling this “kindness” is nothing more than a convenient ego trip on the man’s part. He is escaping from confronting the pain and confusion of the person being left behind. To ensure his own heart doesn’t hurt and that he isn’t wounded, he is trying to package the very act of breaking up within a beautiful landscape.

The Slyness of Using Natural Scenery as an “Indulgence”

The lyrics effectively use descriptions of nature: the wind stopping, broken clouds merging back into one, time flowing like a great river. However, looking at it differently, it almost sounds as if the protagonist is trying to justify himself by blaming his intentional breakup on the “providence of nature” or the “irresistible flow of time.”

As I have grown older and experienced various frictions and separations in human relationships, I have come to understand the “weakness” and “slyness” harbored by the song’s protagonist with painful reality. The self-preservation and cruelty that everyone hides deep within their hearts. The fact that this was camouflaged and presented within such a refined “autumn scenery” is exactly why this piece transcends the boundaries of a mere pop song and continues to reign as a masterpiece that perpetually stirs our hearts.

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The “Distortion” Highlighted by a Perfect Sound

The cruel egoism of the man contained in this song. The main reason this has been accepted by so many listeners (including my past self) as a “beautiful song of parting” for so long lies in the miraculously perfect sound approach created by the group Off Course.

The Sin of the Acoustic Guitar and Beautiful Chorus

The arpeggio of the acoustic guitar quietly plucked at the beginning. It’s an intro that evokes a visual image—as if colored autumn leaves are fluttering down, blown by a cold wind. Over this rides Kazumasa Oda’s transparent vocals and the exquisite chorus work with Yasuhiro Suzuki. The “overwhelming elegance” their music possesses completely wraps the protagonist’s selfishness hidden in the lyrics in the finest sugar-coating.

If this had been rock and roll sung with raw, muddy emotions, or blues directly belting out sorrow, the protagonist’s “slyness” would have reached the listener’s ears much more blatantly. However, Off Course elevated it to extremely refined pop music.

The Magic That Makes the Listener an Accomplice

As a result, we unconsciously adopt the protagonist’s perspective, empathize with his sentimentality, and are made accomplices in staging a “beautiful breakup” together. The illusion that “since he is agonizing against such beautiful background music, this man must also be deeply wounded.” This is arguably the greatest musical magic orchestrated by Kazumasa Oda, an unparalleled melody maker. The more perfect the beauty of the melody becomes, the more it highlights the contrast with the man’s “distortion” in the lyrics, casting an indescribably deep shadow over the song.

The Man’s “Weakness” Seen Right Through

If you change your perspective and look at this scene from the side of the woman being broken up with, a different story emerges.

The Real Reason She Didn’t Smile

The male protagonist struggles to find words of parting and ultimately begs her, “I don’t care if it’s a lie, just smile for me.” However, she never smiles. Her voice grows quiet, and she just stares outside in silence.

She must have seen right through all of his self-preservation disguised as “utmost kindness.” If she smiled here, the man would feel relieved that “they parted amicably” and be freed from his guilt. That is exactly why she silently refused to accept his clumsy kindness—or so I interpret it.

The Final Resistance Entrusted to “That Song”

The only words she utters are an entreaty: “Just that one song, please don’t sing it to anyone else.”

This is not mere lingering affection. It is a quiet yet powerful curse designed to eternally bind the undeniable proof of her existence within him to the realm he cherishes most: his “songs.” I believe it was her desperate resistance, and her pride, against a man trying to neatly pack her away in a box of memories.

As an Unfading Masterpiece

The “Aki no Kehai” woven by Kazumasa Oda does not fit within the mold of a simple heartbreak song. It is a masterpiece that crystallizes human weakness, slyness, and the natural beauty and ruthlessness of time that envelops even those flaws, into perfect pop music.

Even now, nearly half a century since its release, I find myself wanting to listen to this song every time I feel the cold autumn wind. Surely, as the seasons continue to turn, I will keep listening to this gentle yet cruel melody and letting my thoughts wander to days gone by.